Yippee! Rain has come our way! We've been outside playing and singing over these drops of moisture which will save us lots of money in irrigation. Lucy and I went for a walk with an umberella and for the first time were a bit chilly outside, she actually asked for pants, the girl who wants to be naked all the time.
Gardner is sick with the same virus I had, a good time to be sick when it's wet outside. I guess I didn't have an ulcer after all. This virus is different than anything I've had before, causing headache and pressure behind the eyes, stomachache and nausea, extreme tiredness which is normal but, nervousness and I swear I think I had a panic attack, never had one before but my heart was racing and I felt overwhelmed to the point of tears, and very angry, I even yelled at my daughter a few times! That's the weird part the psychological stuff. I was second guessing myself and feeling bad about myself and Gardner, the eternal optimist, was feeling a bit self conscious, too. Wondering why our new neighbor friends haven't called, that's just not like him.
Strange!
I hope these new friends turn out to be great neighborly friends. We are having a tough time meeting people who are freindly around here and forget about being like minded. Our closest neighbors down the road are friendly but represent alot of the things I dislike about Texas. They are Baptist Church goers, Christian, I have no problem with being Christian, I consider myself a Christian. But these people don't act very accepting and Christlike, they hate gay, and anything that scares them and have the worst negative attitude about everything, they eat fried meat and potatoes, no veggies, have depression so they are all on paxil or prozac the 15 year old son is on ritalin and prozac and noone is seeing anyone for counseling, they have acid reflux and take something for that, but won't consider changing their diet. They complain about having no money and yet have 7 cats none of which are spade or neutered, a pig, 2 horses, chickens and ducks, 2 dogs, and get netflix. The wife won't get a job and won't get a driver's license in order to go get a job, BUT it's the negative attitude, a defeatest attitude and the uneducated offering of advice on parenting and health issues that really bothers me. And I like these neighbors, they are friendly and we talk and Lucy loves the farm yard animals! A petting zoo next door isn't bad thing! Just feel like a duck out of water here. The other neighbors on down the road are downright unfriendly, they never talk and don't even wave when they go by in the car, they have 3 girls my daughter loves to play with ages 6, and 8. The 8 year olds are cousins.
So, hope the new neighbor friends become great neighbor friends, they have 3 kids, 4 years old,3 years old and 8 months old. Lucy wants to play with them again so bad!!! Everyone is so busy and it's hard to make friends as we get older, does anyone have any friend making tips?
Well, I guess I did have alot to say, afterall.
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hey amanda
i feel for you, its so awful being sick and feeling isolated. Its been great reading your blog and I'm hoping just the fact that you are creating goes some way to helping feel better.
I'm lucky to live in a community of amzing people, many of whom have become good friends - when we first arrived I put in lots of energy into becoming involved in various projects (which I'm happy to have let go of now). Anyway - meeting people through parenting groups was really helpful at the time. I'm not sure why I'm telling you all this because looking back all it did really was boost my confidence a bit by making me feel needed ; perhaps I would have been better off just realising that I'm ok as I am. Mmmmm.
In my (vast vast) experience, wine people seem to be good earthy kind of people - are there any potential friends in that group ?
And while I'm here - thanks for your positive comments about my blog. You should know that seeing your pages (especially yo-yo) has INSPIRED me to keep creating - I'll soon post some of my own arty projects so you can check them out too. ;-)
mandy
If it's rain you are wanting I can try to send some of ours your way. We have had more rain than we would want in the last little while. It is nice however depressing it is...we needed the moisture. Apparently, the rest of the summer is going to be hot and dry and I am sure I will be longing for the rain.
Thanks for stopping by my site and 7 kids is sometimes an awful lot of work but I LOVE it. Right now we are in the middle of preparing for graduation...
We recently moved to Colorado from Texas (almost a year ago) so I know how you feel about making new friends. We're fortunate to have a really cool family right across the street. We organized a Memorial Day block party and met lots of neighbors. Maybe you could do something for the 4th?
Souds so cool to live in the country. That's what we aim to do as soon as possible.
Once your daughter starts school, you'll meet lots more people in the same boat as you but for now you may try a church (not Baptist ;-)) because often they have groups for moms and young kids (like MOPS) and other ways to meet people.
Hang in there! Being a mother of young children and feeling isolated is very very hard. But it can get better!!!
Thanks for your offer of the gorgeous painting..I'd love to have it but feel bad about you paying to send it to me. Maybe we can work something out. BTW, I've seen lots of people who sell original paintings on eBay and sometimes they get a pretty good price for them!
Hey Amanda we met while you were in San Diego at Kensington park. I love your blog! Hope you don't mind my peeking in every once in a while to see what you Texans are up to ;-) If you'd like...check mine out!
Sorry to hear about your neighbors, they sound like a handful. Good luck finding new friends, are there any kid and Mom classes you can take Lucy to? I always think that I have that difficulty here too (finding friends that is).
Take care,
Jen (mama to Ben, Hannah and Noah)
Thanks for your support everyone!! I'm trying to figure out the settings on this blog and am unable to reply to your comments via email, I'm sorry and confused! Jenn I couldn't access your blog? I'd love to visit yours! I miss SD and our wonderful playgroup.
What I need to do is put myself out there, get involved in something, there's not much going on here except church so that may be my best hope for now. Did I mention the population here is 8,000. Thanks everyone!!!
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